When nap time was my biggest worry

Oh how I miss those days when my big girls were tiny and I was a stay-at-home mom with no kids in school. How my biggest worry every day was nap times. Would they lay down okay, would they sleep long enough or too long, would I get my errands ran in time to get home to lay them down in time, did they drink all their bottle or where's their pacifier? A good nap for my little one could make or break the day for me so it was a big worry of mine a lot of the time. Of course there were others throughout the day of a stay at home mom, like what should we have for dinner or when would be the best time to run to the store? Is it nice enough to take the girls on a walk or to the park, or is it going to be too windy? Do I have enough diapers to get me through the week, and baby food too, for that matter? Is Hubby working too much or when can we get another date night?

Of course there were the bigger worries, like are they eating enough vegetables or drinking enough milk? Are they developing at the right pace or should I be teaching them more? All the bills are paid but are we saving enough or am I managing the money okay? And so on and so on. All that seemed to fill my mind so many years ago when my primary worries were getting my daughters on a schedule and running our home was my main job.

These days the worries are so much different and on a whole new level. I still worry if they're eating enough vegetables but now I worry they're not drinking enough water instead of milk. I still am worried about sleep but worry they're not getting enough. I worry about their grades and how they're doing in school. I worry if they're applying themselves and trying their best since they're no longer under my watch. I worry about them getting injured when they play sports, or riding on a team bus for hours on end at night and in bad weather. I worry about them when they're out late with their friends or who might be around them or talking to them. I worry about technology today and all that entails. What strangers have access to their posts and pictures, who's saying what to them or what are they saying to others since nothing is face to face anymore, or do I have enough safe guards on their phones and iPads to prevent the bad stuff from happening?

It was so much easier when they were with me 24/7 and I was taking care of their needs. Those worries about naps seem so trivial now, compared to the worries I have these days ... and no one even has a driver's license yet! I can't imagine how my worries will increase once they're behind the wheel or going off to college, for Pete's sakes. I'm sure I'll look back and think today's worries were trivial to but just for today, I wish I could turn back time and my biggest worry was if I would be able to get both of my little girls down for a nap at the same time, giving me one blissful hour or two to myself.